Depression

by Nicky Marinkovic
(Leeds, United Kingdom)

If you have ever suffered depression, where do you begin?
To explain how you’re feeling, when you’re trapped from within
Every day feels like a battle; a tall mountain you must climb
The days seem to blend together; you lose all sense of time

The person you were before; can seem lost to you right now
Your confidence and self esteem, taken from you somehow
Replaced by anxiety, sleepless nights and feelings of despair
You struggle with daily life and you may find it hard to share

How you’re feeling inside when you don’t even comprehend
What is happening to you, when will this madness ever end?
Detached from your life, quietly observing from the outside
Wishing you were invisible because you just want to hide

The hole just gets deeper, you find yourself falling right in
Will you ever feel like you again or will this awful illness win
Outside you can feel so fragile and quietly you wonder why
Then frustration takes over and endless tears you may cry

Your body shuts down and you’re becoming more distant
The negative thoughts take over, become more persistent
If you can relate in some way, to these words that I write
Please understand in your darkness, that there will be light

You’re still the person you always were, a little lost maybe
Trapped deep within you and really desperate to feel free
The person you used to be, just hides somewhere within
You can be yourself once more and this battle you can win

You will feel strong again, this mental mountain you’ll climb
You’ll get right back on top with a new born confidence inside
See things much more clearly, enjoyment will again be yours
This is a blip in your journey and you will get back on course