Do They Hate Me?

by Lauren
(England)

They ignore me,
They play games with my mind,
It's their favorite toy.

They leave me out of everything.
Freeze me out,
Same old games again,
Why do I keep expecting them to change?

My depression is my only company,
My only friend in all this mess.
Trying to stay strong,
But I'm failing; miserably.

I want to be me again;
right now I'm just a shell.
I want to be whole again;
I'm missing my soul.

My silence really is just another word for my pain.
Who do you go to when you have no one?
I've never been more alone, it scares me.

I feel alone in a room full of people,
I've been torn apart inside.
I am not whole.
I am weak, and for that; I truly am sorry.