Fear of the Monster

by Lili Sturges
(Milton Keynes, England )

The dead cry of fear

A monster across my soul,
shadows upon my eyes,
thoughts stuffed in my mind,
no feeling left but fear whilst I'm lying here,
fear over whether I'll go on
fear over whether I wont,
fear about whether I'm right,
terror at the fear that I'm wrong,
will I be forever alone,
or will I get that chance.
Fear that I can't ask for help
as I would be a fool,
what if they think I'm weak, and not able to be strong.
Fear that I'll put them down with me,
FEAR,
just FEAR whilst I'm waiting here