My Past

by Lauren
(England)

I'm trying my best; I really am, I swear,
It's just hard.
How can you get over something
that took years of your life?
How can you get over something
that still haunts you in your nightmares?

People tell me to just get over it.
I want to, I really do.
It hurts when people call me an attention seeker,
They don't know what I've been through,
Heck; they don't even know my name.

You want to know what I've been through?
OK.
My heart has shattered into a million pieces.
The light in my soul has dimmed,
and eventually turned into darkness.
And finally, my mind has been confused so many times;
it doesn't know what to believe anymore.

And finally, how can you get over your past
if it causes things in your present to happen?
Bad things.
It's because I'm a bad person.

I'm sorry.