Never Forgotten: An Ode To Addiction
by Anne Stockholm
You can cheat and you can lie.
You can blow ‘til you get high.
You can smoke and you can drink.
You can even refuse to think.
But what do you have when all of it is gone?
Who will be there when the tough times take on?
Even the toughest weep sometimes.
Even the law commits a crime.
So how will you be when the smog settles?
How will you be when you lose your battles?
You’re a disgrace.
You live a demon’s life.
How could you go on…?
…forgetting what is right?
How is it that you find the nerve to smile…?
…when you’re rotting inside, all the damn while?
You used to be nice, innocent and true.
Look at what your weakness did to you.
You seem proud even though you’re losing.
Did you ever wonder why everyone’s leaving?
You choose to act as if you’re on top.
Climbing on still, high on your rock.
And then you come home, not letting mummy know
Such disgusting ways you choose not to show
Tell me are you ashamed, perhaps?
Why the hell do you do it then, you sorry piece of crap?
What power do you gain when you let it corrupt you?
A moment’s high, just to get in the mood?
But what happens when the effect subsides?
Will you escape your haunting lies?
Your “friends” can’t heal your wounds inside
Wake up, asshole, there’s nowhere to hide
Don’t be mad, I’m just telling the truth
Telling the story that is all about you
No twists, no lies and no wrong turns
This is the part where you learn to learn
It’s not yet too late to take it all back
But some will refuse and that’s a sad fact
Just settle with the little things you still have
If they’re not enough, learn to be glad
See in the map, you only have three ways
Up, down and simply sideways
It’s up to you which path you choose
To win it all back? Or continue to lose?
I’ll call you a dumbass and you can call me a bitch
But I’m the bitch who pulled over when you needed a hitch
You can hate me and curse me in a way that you please
But this bitch will still be here when everyone leaves
I want to see you come that fine day
When you’ll realise it’s enough and you’ll kneel down to pray
Until then I’ll be ready to go
No matter what we are, friend or foe…
(Originally Completed July 2009)