Never meant to love you behind bars but here i am

by Cas
(Manchester england)

I never meant to fall in love at all
Never mind with you,
How it all happened so fast
I haven't a single clue.

All I know is I crave those lips of yours
Want to feel your hand brush through my hair,
Want to turn over in bed and hold you
Only to realise your not there.

I want to stare at you for hours
Knowing that time is on my side,
But every time I hold you I have to let go
And walk away hiding this pain inside.

Although we can see the finish line
Where we leave all this behind,
Coming to terms with the present
Is hardest for me I find.

I know you've done wrong and you've been punished
Lost three years of your life,
You must understand this can never be again
I couldn't go through this struggle and the strife.

I miss u more than you know fella
All I have is your aftershave to remind me of your scent,
And memories of your touch on my skin
On the small times we have spent.

I need to keep alive the sparks that fly
Whenever our eyes meet and we feel lost in our own space,
I need you to know I will wait this out and count down the days left
Until I see your beautiful face.

I miss you
I never intended on being madly in love with you,
Or sleeping alone dreaming of moments yet to come like i do
But im here and i dont wanna be anywhere else if it means im without you xxxx